Slowing down

It is Easter.  It is Spring.  A time for nature to awaken from winter and bloom and flourish.  In my interim I am finding that I have had a bit of reawakening.  The minute I graduated college I naturally needed to get a job.  Like any other college student I needed money, so I hit the pavement, or rather in our generation scoured the internet.  I got a job, a good job, I worked very hard.  Looking back there is a phrase that really sticks out to me, "sense of urgency."  The last four and a half years I have been thriving in urgency.  Sun up to sun down I was in a rush.  Even on the weekends I moved quickly to get my errands out of the way so I could get to my R&R time where I speedily buzzed through my TiVO list to make sure I saw all of my recorded shows.  Everything I did was done in a hurray.

In an earlier post I mentioned my mom asked me what I would do now that I had moved on from my job, what would consume my life next?  I really did not have an answer until today.  I realized that I am slowing down and taking time to enjoy.  I have spent time with all of my family.  I have sat down with them and really talked and listened.  Truly enjoyed their company.  I have cooked.  Not just once either, well maybe just twice, but I have really cooked things I want to eat.  Taken time to make healthy, delicious food.  Not only have I cooked but I have taken time to really taste my food.  I always ate in a hurry to get it over with, but not any more.  And I have hiked and I have ran.  Thanks to my big brother I have ran outside and reveled in this beautiful mountain landscape.  In five days I have jogged about 16 miles, a feat for me.  I have red books and I am writing as well.

I also mentioned in a past post that I could be having a quarter life crisis, but I really think that I am just growing up.  I am looking at the future and finding my way.  I am taking time to really ponder what it is that I would like to do.  When I get to Dubai I will get another job, and I will feel that urgency creep up again, but because of this down time here in North Carolina I hope that I have learned the value in just slowing down and taking my time to carve my path.

Happy Easter!