It is Easter. It is Spring. A time for nature to awaken from winter and bloom and flourish. In my interim I am finding that I have had a bit of reawakening. The minute I graduated college I naturally needed to get a job. Like any other college student I needed money, so I hit the pavement, or rather in our generation scoured the internet. I got a job, a good job, I worked very hard. Looking back there is a phrase that really sticks out to me, "sense of urgency." The last four and a half years I have been thriving in urgency. Sun up to sun down I was in a rush. Even on the weekends I moved quickly to get my errands out of the way so I could get to my R&R time where I speedily buzzed through my TiVO list to make sure I saw all of my recorded shows. Everything I did was done in a hurray.
In an earlier post I mentioned my mom asked me what I would do now that I had moved on from my job, what would consume my life next? I really did not have an answer until today. I realized that I am slowing down and taking time to enjoy. I have spent time with all of my family. I have sat down with them and really talked and listened. Truly enjoyed their company. I have cooked. Not just once either, well maybe just twice, but I have really cooked things I want to eat. Taken time to make healthy, delicious food. Not only have I cooked but I have taken time to really taste my food. I always ate in a hurry to get it over with, but not any more. And I have hiked and I have ran. Thanks to my big brother I have ran outside and reveled in this beautiful mountain landscape. In five days I have jogged about 16 miles, a feat for me. I have red books and I am writing as well.
I also mentioned in a past post that I could be having a quarter life crisis, but I really think that I am just growing up. I am looking at the future and finding my way. I am taking time to really ponder what it is that I would like to do. When I get to Dubai I will get another job, and I will feel that urgency creep up again, but because of this down time here in North Carolina I hope that I have learned the value in just slowing down and taking my time to carve my path.