Sunday, April 24, 2011

Slowing down

It is Easter.  It is Spring.  A time for nature to awaken from winter and bloom and flourish.  In my interim I am finding that I have had a bit of reawakening.  The minute I graduated college I naturally needed to get a job.  Like any other college student I needed money, so I hit the pavement, or rather in our generation scoured the internet.  I got a job, a good job, I worked very hard.  Looking back there is a phrase that really sticks out to me, "sense of urgency."  The last four and a half years I have been thriving in urgency.  Sun up to sun down I was in a rush.  Even on the weekends I moved quickly to get my errands out of the way so I could get to my R&R time where I speedily buzzed through my TiVO list to make sure I saw all of my recorded shows.  Everything I did was done in a hurray.

In an earlier post I mentioned my mom asked me what I would do now that I had moved on from my job, what would consume my life next?  I really did not have an answer until today.  I realized that I am slowing down and taking time to enjoy.  I have spent time with all of my family.  I have sat down with them and really talked and listened.  Truly enjoyed their company.  I have cooked.  Not just once either, well maybe just twice, but I have really cooked things I want to eat.  Taken time to make healthy, delicious food.  Not only have I cooked but I have taken time to really taste my food.  I always ate in a hurry to get it over with, but not any more.  And I have hiked and I have ran.  Thanks to my big brother I have ran outside and reveled in this beautiful mountain landscape.  In five days I have jogged about 16 miles, a feat for me.  I have red books and I am writing as well.

I also mentioned in a past post that I could be having a quarter life crisis, but I really think that I am just growing up.  I am looking at the future and finding my way.  I am taking time to really ponder what it is that I would like to do.  When I get to Dubai I will get another job, and I will feel that urgency creep up again, but because of this down time here in North Carolina I hope that I have learned the value in just slowing down and taking my time to carve my path.

Happy Easter!


  1. Wow Red, thumbs up to you on that! Transitional points seem to be chock full of moments and revelations like these. I think you know that I'm definitely speaking from experience. I'm so proud of you, please know that your hope gives me hope as well while we both go our separate paths to try for a Hollywood ending. Keep it up and I'll try my best to do the same! Clear eyes, full know the rest...

  2. Sooo true. after leaving slowing down has been the best thing to ever happen to me. us. we've learned that everything doesn't have to be done yesterday!

    oh and...clear eyes, full hearts, can't lose! best phrase (and show) ever.